This is definitely the hardest episode of The Baggage Reclaim Sessions. that I’ve ever recorded and yet, it was cathartic and needed.
My father passed away on March 28th and I was right there at his side. I had in a way, dreaded his passing, expecting a tsunami of grief, but instead, while I am grieving, it’s just not what I expected, at all.
In this episode, I give a bit of backstory to this past 9 months, including how I felt that a series of painful events and how I overcame them, seemed to be about preparing me for that day when I would get the call about his cancer. I talk about the conflicting emotions I went through back then, how I in essence began grieving my father all over again with his diagnosis, and why I’m ok with us not having been in touch in the preceding four years.
I also share some of the comedy chaos of that final day, because you know my family are crackerjacks, along with what that all taught me, plus I let you know where I’m at now and why some of the struggle of ‘enoughness’ that I used to feel with each of my parents and worked to leave behind, showed up in my work during this time.
Episode 31 where I talked about having received the news that my father was ill
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